That kinda just sucks for you. Ha.
I've never claimed to be a great writer... *tries to remember if she has ever said that she was* ...well I probably haven't.
I would love to give you guys a daily update on my life, and I'll probably regret not posting as often. But I could never forget about this experience. So that I'm not worried about. I just don't want to always be on the internet here you know? That's not what studying abroad is about. I think you guys that know me would know that I would upload on youtube daily if I could. But I would REALLY regret that. I wouldn't be studying abroad. I would be on the internet in Japan. And I'm just busy all the time. So that's why this blog is randomly updated not so often.
Because I'm not really sure what to put here, I'm just gonna rant, edit, and publish. Best of luck trying to figure out my thought process in this one.
（ｐｓ The title is a super awfully translated wayto say, "you7ll be in my heart")
Ruined that early didn't I?
P.S. Doing the "one year Project" again this year. Can't wait
There's so much I want to say
I guess I'll start here..
Yesterday was amazing. Absolutely superb. I got to go to church and hang out with some of the coolest people in the world. Our English prayer meetings can be extremely ridiculous, but I feel like we all get really close during those meetings. Yesterday I shared about how I get really worried about college and money and the future. But I had been reading Psalms and felt incredibly encouraged because God was just shouting at me, "I GOT YOU!!! Follow me and it'll all be ok! You don't have to have it all figured out." He knows exactly what I need to hear. Thanks be to God.
Sanggi, Daichi, Les, Samantha, Kazune, Yuka, and I (ha, I named you all this time) all went Christmas shopping and went out to dinner. Whether determining the difference between "Ajaps" and "jush", getting scared of a piece of paper, or almost getting hit by a taxi, we always can find a way to have a good laugh.
But yesterday brought some sadness as well. Samantha is going home on Thursday, for good. Samantha is something, man. She was one of the first people I met and I've enjoyed every second we've had to complain about dealing with our guy friends. And yesterday was probably the last time I'll see her for a good while. It was a terribly sad thing.
Not to mention Les and Kazune are also leaving to go home, but they're coming back, so I'll see them soon. Still, very sad.
But there was something I almost can't explain that happened last night.
We all gathered around the entrance to the 地下鉄 （...subway. Yepp, definitely just forgot English). And we all looked at each other for a good ten minutes. Course it wasn't silent. There were jokes being said, and Tenjin isn't exactly quiet even if we wouldn't have been talking. But before any goodbyes were said, I could look at each of the six beautiful faces around me. And I knew this is what we were made for. That kind of companionship you don't just find anywhere. For those of you in that group that may read this, know you are the best friends I've ever made. Honestly. I looked at you guys, knowing some of you I wouldn't see for a long time, and I felt a connection. You're taking a part of my heart with you, know that. To Chicago, Texas, elsewhere in Japan, or up in the mountains. Doesn't matter if I'm seeing you before the end of this week, or if I don't know if I'll ever see you again. You are a huge part of my story and I can never thank you enough. Something about the way I can look in your eyes and smile, I just know that you will always be in my heart. This may sound super cheesy, but it is blatantly honest. You always can call me up. I may not have been the best person or friend to you, butb I love you. I love you guys so much. And I think we all silently communicated that with our final embraces and goodbyes.
That probably didn't make any sense. Crying Miah can't type.
I'm glad we've had the time together that we've been given.
Thank you.
I love you.
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Fair winds.
